DEVON

It was good to get away for a week.
The weather was stunning the first two days and me and dad did alot of walking and exploring.
Obviously it wasnt to last in the UK as always
So i was shivering most of the time!

We were staying at a cottage beside the lighthouse dad was working on, and thus had NO signal, which sucked ASS man!
We went out most days though so i was able to send a few texts.

We saw Speed Racer in a cinema which looked so vintage with a red curtain and seats
And on Saturday we saw BILL BAILEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How fucking awesommmmmmmmmme!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He was in this Charity show thing and there was a Ventriloquist there too, and dancers and a band.
We were in the front row so i could almost touch him!!!!!!!!!!!

All in all though i couldnt enjoy my stay very much.
Dads found out i hadnt been eaten again.
And he made me eat when i was there and i had a break down that lasted for hours.
I was a total wreck and i feel sorry for dads workmate who was staying with us.

It was good to be home and able to text and talk as much as i liked, but it was good there.
Visiting all the little quaint villages and having a seaweed fight with dad and skipping my first stone

YESTERDAY'S DRAMA

Yesterday was rather... eventful.
Sean came over at 1ish and i had my new phone in the morning!
I was real chuffed cause it's awesome and anyone who wants my number who doesnt have it just note me.

We ended up going to lazer zone with Sarah, Bethan, Katy and Geriant. Havent been to lazer zone in YEARS so it was greatfun and it was Me Sarah and Bethan against the others.

Sean of course forced me to let him pay, so was not happy and had to kick his ass.
Kind of... fainted in the second game though... and a bit later after we'd come out and had a lil breakdown.
I hadnt eaten in two days and everyone was fussing.
Bethan cried... and so did Sarah a bit.. although she tried to keep it in.
It was really emotional... laying in a lane crying... god what a night.

So sarah slept over and Sean stayed till twelve and they made me eat something.
God what a night...

THIS WEEK'S EVENTS

So, today im going to see Jonny at 5:30 and go to see The Eye in the cinema and go for a walk on the beach!!

On wednesday Traceys picking me up at 10:30.
We're going shopping and then clubbing in the night.
I still dont trust her, but im playing UBER happy families.
Sadly there are no Gay Bars in Port Talbot *mopes*
Then im sleeping over hers for the night.

Going to see Mark for a bit on Thursday and i might pop in to see if Sammi is okay while im in Port Talbot and Thursday is her day off.
Also Thursday is Hannahs birthday!

And then Friday night im kipping over Sarahs and going to LONDON on Saturday.
We're going to see WICKED !!!
YEY I cant wait!!!!
Me and Sarah and Bethan are sharing a hotel room!!!
And we're going to see the museums too.

I'm going to try and eat more so i have the energy... but it's real hard.
I'm surprised i didnt have an anxiety attack last night... but the way Sarah and Sean approached it was really funny at times And i still felt some what in control.
I hate to make Sarah and everyone feel so bad.. and see me so.. fucked up.
And im going to make it up to them.

I'm gonna buy a big bunch of flowers for Sarahs mum and her family for all they have done for me.

And also cant wait to see Alex.
If i get a chance to see him this weekend in London it will be great but if not im going up there in June
I have so much to repay him for.
also this fabulous new Subby i have
YEYNESS!!!!
He does WAY too much for me
I love you Alex darling xxxx